“My daddy North Carolina
Mi mama es de Panamá
You mix dat Negro
MAKE A KIARECKLESS”
– Inspired to Beyoncé’s “Formation”
I am African-American and Panameña.
In my present, I am what the past envisioned of as a brighter future. I am a brighter future because they were the light.
I am a woman.
Divine femininity and comfortable in what my womanhood looks like. I am my own definition of strong and sensitive, and I like the shawty I am becoming!
I am a lesbian*.
*Once strongly identifying as lesbian, now I do not feel as strongly as before. The more I love, the more I love… And I just want to love the way I love.
Labels. This is what we use to help others understand who we are. They bring community, a sense of belonging. I love communities, but communities have rules. I love belonging, but belonging has rules. Intersectionality makes communities smaller and belonging that much more difficult. The longer I live, the closer I get to some identities while also straying away from what I initially thought was me.
Honestly, I don’t know what else to say because I’m still in the process of figuring it all out. And to be even realer, I have a feeling that this could very well last a lifetime. But I’m down for the ride of theories, experiences, and life coming at me fast… How about you? Down for a wondrous adventure?