So, I’m just gonna write this blog post off the cuff… First draft, no edits, straight from my thoughts to this blog! Let’s goooooooo!
Okay, what’s up? Just got back to the states from living abroad in PTY for casi 3 months. Making America Great Again with my presence! Reverse culture shock is already real enough, now imagine coming back home with Donald Trump as the President-Elect and Fidel Castro passing away only a few weeks later! Life comes at you fast, and 2016 will come at you faster.
But back to the fact that I’ve been living in my mother’s land for the past 3 months. Wow. What an experience of a lifetime! I’m still trying to process it myself, and I can’t quite yet put my finger on what I’ve learned overall… I do, however, know above all else now how grateful and privileged I am, and how I will no longer squander my opportunities, loved ones, and life ever again!
Last Tuesday was the 8th anniversary of Nathalia’s passing away, and also my last day in Panamá. As I drove by where she was buried (the cemetery was closed due to Tropical Storm / Hurricane Otto), a sense of purpose came to me. For the first time in a long time, I felt a sigh of relief. I finally knew what letting go meant.
To let go is the hardest lesson I have ever, and continue to ever have to, learn. And honestly, all I can say is that I’m just happy to be here! In this moment! The past is the past, and the future will be there when I get to it. All I know is that the present is so wonderful, and I’m forever thankful!
Yeah, this post isn’t as concise as I was hoping it would be… But that’s life. For the last month of 2016, I plan to really analyze, process, and take in all that I have learned this year. This was one for the books! And so I’ll talk to you lovelies soon. Never hesitate to contact me via Instagram, Snapchat, Twitter, or even The Facebook… All handles: @maravillakiara
Thank you so much for all of your support!