I don’t know.

And thank goodness for that!

I don’t know.

I’m 19 years old with ~ 19 years of shame, guilt, and regrets. I have been the cause and the effect of harm, and hurt, and despair — specifically to, and by, the people I love.

Lied. Cheated. Stolen. Abused. Abandoned. Neglected. Destroyed.

Yet somehow, I was worthy of Love.

I am worthy of Love.

Love saved me, and continues to do so.

Everyday. Every moment.

Love tells me not to just live in the shame, or guilt, or regrets; Love wants me to be softened by it. To take responsibility. To give and ask for forgiveness.

To forgive myself

Be humble

Grow compassionate


I have been so caught up in my own drama that I never took the time to think about the other. To realize that I contribute to the other. To realize that I’m one with the other.

I don’t blame anyone or anything for my actions that caused harmed, or for those who have harmed me. I’m not here to justify my wrongs or the wrongs done unto me. I just can’t live with hatred in my heart anymore. I’m so tired.

All I can say is that I’m 19 and so, so happy that I don’t know!

But I’m on my way.

Posted by:Maravilla World

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