Forgive(n).

So many second, third, a hundred chances. I just needed someone to show up and stay. Remembering how loved I was. Trusted and set free, Time and space merge to greet us with a choice…. This is what I wish for you. This is what I am thankful for you, what we have together. This…

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I feel.

So scared. How do I move forward? I feel like everyone knows, everyone thinks it’s a lie, that it was all in my head, that I will never love again. Such peace. No one can take away the calm that came over me after I let you go. I was free! Great shame. Played by…

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The sweet life.

Fill me up until I go blind with you I can’t just be This person Empty with self-doubt And so I binge I have no boundaries Take up infinite space Repeat Till the point of no return Go further I Becoming unrecognizable Even to myself Especially to myself Sin pain

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Myself.

I do everything “right” Checking everything off my to-do list Check after Check after Check And as I sit here Alone I realize I don’t want any of this I don’t want any of this at all! I don’t trust Myself I don’t forgive Myself I don’t want to be with just Myself

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Over.

I love you. I want nothing but the best for you in life. And I think it’s best that we end this relationship. This relationship meant the world to me. You are my first love. You are my soulmate. We just are not meant to be together. May God bless you, your family, and your…

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They never tell you.

It won’t always be bad They aren’t even all bad Your family will fall in love with them, You fall in love with them To everyone It all looks so good From the outside Looking in …because you built this home Foundation of mistrust and Jealousy Brick by brick Tear by tear You couldn’t stop…

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Rebound.

You loved her For so long And just like that You Became mine Prettier more Mature And a life all her own I tried to fill you With my time Loyalty body Money Just to see you smile one more time One more time never came I was never enough I was never Her

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Your reflection.

I liked being the bad guy because everyone knows that the bad guys get to choose how much pain is inflicted. The bad guys don’t get hurt, they hurt. They hurt. Mistrust and jealousy became our outline that wasn’t made with my hands, but followed through just the same. “I would never cheat on you,…

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